Currently Listening Let Go By Avril Lavigne see related

I miss him.  I love him.  I wish he were here.  I wish he were mine again.  Saturday nite Tasha came over to my house and spent the nite and it was a fun,loving, hurting nite.  I talked to Steven that nite and well he was pissed b/c of Tasha's e-mail to him, which is was pretty mean. And then I started talking to him then tasha said sum stuff and pissed him off. But then about 20 minutes he started talking to me again. And then i def fucked up by asking a question that i shouldn't have asked....gawd i wish i hadn't sooooo fuckin much.  But then he said a really sweet thing even to make me feel better, he said "camp sight with friends, wishing u were there to hold". i mean how fuckin sweet is that!! Then he told me that he loved me and i thought he meant like friends so i said that i loved him too then he goes no i really mean it!! i was sooo fuckin happy!! if he had been there i would have kissed him sooo hard and long! lol but i'm pretty sure that i fucked up w/him b/c of Tasha. Which sux b/c i love him soo fuckin much! I mean i just wanna see him again and b/his again. I wanna b "His Sammi" again. Gawd i miss him but he's probly out partying and not thinking about me, but idk mayb he is thinking about me . i kno i'm thinking about him! haha well anyway I hope and pray i didn't mess up w/him b/c i can't afford to mess up anymore times w/him cuz idk how much longer he's going to wanna b w/me, u kno? well g2g love ya sk8rs!